It was around 10:30 PM and my husband (boyfriend at the time) was sleeping. I was laying in bed next to him but could not sleep. I was tossing and turning which was not a good combination with the nausea and dizziness I felt every time I rolled over. I wondered, “could it be?” So I got up, got a pregnancy test, and I took it. I peed in a cup and dipped the pregnancy test in it. It took .5 seconds to show a positive result. Liiike I was still holding the test stick in the cup when it showed up as positive. I was frantic! I started shaking and pacing the bedroom. Should I wake him up? Should I just wait til morning? No! This can’t wait.
I “woke” my sleeping husband and said “Jason I am pregnant!” He just looked at me and said “Okay.” He laid back down and closed his eyes. May I remind you, I am totally freaking out and shaking, my entire body is shaking…. I woke him up again and said, “Jason I don’t think you are understanding me. I need you to wake up.” Trying to stay calm I finally get him to sit up when I loudly say “Jason I really need you to get up!” I am almost crying at this point because he will not wake up. (He still doesn't wake up easy, even when our child is climbing on his head) He sits up and just stares at me. I then tell him again that I just took a pregnancy test and it was positive, this time telling him that I am freaking out. He says “It will be okay. Just go to sleep and we will talk about it tomorrow.” I then ask if he understands what I am telling him and he says yes, kisses me, lays down and goes back to sleep. What the heck?! I knew then that he was still half asleep (more like ¾ still asleep) because he was too calm. I gave up… So I laid back down in total shock. What do I need to do? How far along am I? Should I have saw a Doctor already? I hope everything is okay! Freaking. Out.
I got on my phone and started searching the web (doesn't everyone do that?) and reading. I knew about how far along I was in 5 minutes thanks to the internet and me knowing the first day of my last period. At some point I finally fell asleep and was woken up by my husband the next morning asking if I was okay. He then proceeded to tell me that when he woke up he did not know if he had been dreaming or not when I told him I was pregnant. He was shortly confirmed that it was not a dream when he saw the pregnancy test on the bathroom sink. He was still so calm and so happy, I couldn’t believe it! He was excited and I was scared. Mostly scared of what my parents were going to think. I knew I had to tell them soon because I was going to stress about it if I didn’t, and remember all of the internet searching I had just done hours before? I read that stress is bad for baby! Yes, I am a worry wart. And I read it on the internet so it must be right! ;)
I told my mom first… She was happy! Whew!! That went well. Besides her blurting it out to her co worker. Thanks mom! Then it was time to tell my dad. I couldn’t do it. I didn’t know what to say or how to tell him. Maybe my mom could tell him? No… That wouldn’t be right. I rehearsed it over and over with my stomach in knots and knew that this wasn’t healthy for my baby, so I finally did it. I told my dad that I was pregnant. He couldn’t have had a better response. He told me congratulations and my stomach immediately “untied” and I felt so calm. Nauseous, but calm. I was then able to relax and let it sink in when I got a clear head, “I am going to be a mommy”. Finally, able to embrace the moment and be happy that I was going to be a mommy. I was super excited!!